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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

13.06.2025 07:28

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

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I had hoped to write a book about this .

I write beautiful poetry .

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

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Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

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Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Im still living with it.

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I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

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Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

What does it mean when someone tells you they love you and want you in their life, but doesn't want to commit?

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

But ive been too sick for many years..

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

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I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

But, we were locked up after school.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

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She was in good health!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Do empaths fall easier for abusive people?

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I think the readers, may guess!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

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And who doesn’t know suffering?

I said to her

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

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One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

(And it was in our own minds.)

And i lived it daily.

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I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Why are US customs agents so talkative? I cringed hard when a US customs agent asked me if I was on vacation. He doesn’t need to know why I went to another country as long as I am a U.S. citizen.

She loved him until the end.

She wouldn,t have been !

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I was seconnd youngest,

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I waited trembling.

I couldn’t, believe it.

As i do to all so called friends.?

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

She married twice! .

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Was to survive, this bastard.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

So whats the point in blame.

All the time i was locked up.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

When she asked me how she looked .

This is how, and why children get BPD.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I was scared of men, in general

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

My family never makes their pension either.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

What did i know ?

The only rule us 5 kids had .

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

He resisted the act ,that day.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Would this be the day?

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I never cut or harmed myself..

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

This is soul school!.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I have no regrets .

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Comes on , in middle age.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

So, i spoilt her more .

He knew the spot.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

My life is so biszare .

Who then, do I blame.?

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

She found it foreign!.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

We were not on the streets..

But it wasn’t much.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I will be 64.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Put me off passion for life!!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Especially a lifetime of it.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

We all went to grammer schools

I was very sick at this time too.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

My mum and dad in the seventies!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

It was going to be , some day.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I could never make a relationship work though!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I don,t even have a pension.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Ive learnt so much.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

One cannot live in the past .

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I was 9 years of age.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Why did i forgive my father ?

I know ,a lot about trauma.