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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 03:08

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I said to her

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As i do to all so called friends.?

I waited trembling.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

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Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

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Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

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He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

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He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

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Ive learnt so much.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Is the saying "nice guys finish last" true? Can good intentions always lead to positive outcomes?

But it wasn’t much.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

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Why did i forgive my father ?

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

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I couldn’t, believe it.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

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At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

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Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

She wouldn,t have been !

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But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

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But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

My life is so biszare .

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

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He resisted the act ,that day.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I was scared of men, in general

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

(And it was in our own minds.)

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Would this be the day?

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

So whats the point in blame.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

So, i spoilt her more .

The only rule us 5 kids had .

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

She married twice! .

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

He knew the spot.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I don,t even have a pension.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

This is soul school!.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I could never make a relationship work though!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

When she asked me how she looked .

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

One cannot live in the past .

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I have no regrets .

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

But, we were locked up after school.

I never cut or harmed myself..

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

She loved him until the end.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

It was going to be , some day.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Im still living with it.

I was very sick at this time too.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Put me off passion for life!!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

And i lived it daily.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Who then, do I blame.?

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I write beautiful poetry .

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I was 9 years of age.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

What did i know ?

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Especially a lifetime of it.

She was in good health!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I will be 64.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I was seconnd youngest,

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

She found it foreign!.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

My family never makes their pension either.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Comes on , in middle age.

We all went to grammer schools

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

All the time i was locked up.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

We were not on the streets..

I think the readers, may guess!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Was to survive, this bastard.

But ive been too sick for many years..